What Was That All About?

AWM & I were supposed to get together for a movie up in the north country last night. Needless to say I was very much looking forward. Then I got an e-mail from her in the morning cancelling. She had awakened ill and was going to spend the day sleeping. I wished her a speedy recovery and that should have been that.
But as the day wore on I found myself getting depressed and frantic so that by the evening I was almost beside myself with grief. And as it was going on I didn't know what was going on. Then she called and that was a disaster. If I were her, I think I'd run in the opposite direction, and my guess is she will.
So what was that all about? My reaction to awm was totally out of line and (I think) uncharacteristic of me. So I think I must claim the last straw defense. With everything else that's going on, from the girls and Repulsa, to work, to that pesky little lump I've been trying my best to be upbeat so as not to upset the girls. They get enough of that from Repulsa so I try to over compensate.
I think the dissapointment of last night put a crack in the veneer. I do feel much better this morning so I probably got some shit out that needed outing. I just wish it had been something else that provided the crack.